I DID IT, I'm Published in People Magazine, but why I am so depressed

Actually I am ecstatic, just critical of my work and decisions I made at this shoot, like doing a video of this moment so you at home could see the chaos of the moment - LOL No, actually I like bringing you guys the chaos. The video is the last entry. One of my favorite documentaries is "A Date With Drew", so when I started shooting with an agency in December, I set as one of my goals to get a photo published in People Magazine (I have been published in magazines, and newspapers before, its just to me People in the cream of the crop, and they tend to publish from the same photographers, it seems. When I made my New Year's Resolution back on 1/1/07, I should have been more specific about which section of People I wished to see my work in. SO to look a gift horse in the mouth, my shot was published in the "This is what happened over the Weekend" section on PeopleOnline.com in the video section, an area that doesn't give a photo credit, and a section I never envisioned my first shot would appear, I never went that deep into the site. The shot above is the original, below the published shot. Note how people cropped it, and also made the colors warmer. I like what they did. Glad they saw the imperfections

The shot below was taken by Anthony Dixon of WENN. It appears in the section that I will be striving to be in next, the PHOTO SECTION. He's shot is great, and he's a great guy, but I was surprised the would publish a shot with a person in the background behind Halle Berry, and thus I didn't submit the nice full length shot I had because of the folks behind my full length "Fashion" shot. The colors on his shots are also warmer, and People titled it "Halle's Pregnancy Glow". (It might have to do with the camera too, he shoots with a Canon which seems to be warmer, than the harsh reality of a Nikon, which seems to be bluer, I'll have to work on that.)

The shot that I didn't submit because of background "noise"This is the one I did submit. Who knew they didn't like the bare wall, but did like a luggage cart.

Here's the fun video I shot of the chaotic scene. I guess I can call it quits now and write my book. I was looking forward to a more dramatic conclusion, like one of my shots being published 12/31/07 This shot didn't happen by itself. Thanks to the other people that helped me along, my partner Mike (who doesn't mind too much when I travel to NYC on my 2 day jaunts once a month), Kati, Simon (who let me crash at their place), Margarita, Carmen (who got me into this business in the first place), Luisa, Cara, Janet, David, Anthony, Rick, cityrag, Gawker, Reese Witherspoon, Citizen Image, WENN and all the other people who encourage me to stay in this business even though I live in Philly, have a full time day job and seem to manage on very little sleep, even if I am grumpy. Now I have an ending to my book. I see my retirement coming soon, this pace is hard to maintain - LOL