but now I don't feel compelled to check the trades each week to see if I have a photo published, I don't have to check People.com to see who might be in NYC and if I should run up and try and get a photo, I don't have to do endless hours of searches to determine the exclusives. It means that the thought of flowers and landscapes and Philly people, and window shopping and dancing can come back into my life. I can follow the birds, I can have a garden, I can watch the migrating butterflies, which I missed the last three years after doing it for the last 10 years. It means balance, it means I will still do Fashion Week, TV Week, Broadway and see my friends in NYC a couple times a year. But those events are static and never change. I must have a book in me by now, who wants to option my story for a book and get the real confessions? Doubleday ? HarperCollins ? Simon & Schuster ? Random House? or will I have to self publish ?